Self Portrait in June in Washington State

- driving hours on backroads to get North Carolina barbeque sandwiches

- the glow of streetlights in a suburan neighborhood on my first night home

- baking in a hot car on my 15 minute break at the surf shop

- grown out bleach blonde hair and contact lenses

- a collage of baby photos on my grandmother's wall

- the view from the rooftop of the parking garage

- thunderstorms in the rear view mirror on the way home from the rock gym

- starfish and seashells sprawled across the beach

- climbing seaweed-covered, brittle rock on the coastline

- gnarled roots and tree stumps

- midnight on the beach on East Sound

- the bed of my uncle's pickup truck at sunset

- sleeping with the lights on

- caught in a rip tide at Croatan Beach with my best friend (we're strong swimmers)

- spirals in the sand

- angry nesting barn swallows

- driving to pick up developed film in torrential rain

- 170 hours logged in Breath of the Wild (a distraction)

- a blue sunset over the Pacific

- alone on the beach after a rainstorm

- crossing five lanes on the interstate

- old photos of when i was on the swim team

- do you know where you are? you are not in control.